Why I'm still here. | firegod74's Blog

I just spent... I don't know.  Too much time anyway, on a total strangers profile. This wasn't a potential circle member, this wasn't a person known to the people in my circle, this wasn't some young hotbody telling tales of lust with pictures of their hotness all on display.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy doing all that stuff too...
No the last hour was a portion of some strangers life dissected.  Someone who hasn't been here since January of last year.  It started in in her stories.  A promising future, a love of her life.  This girl had it all figured out.  She was happy, life was good... But then she stopped writing. I never got to see if everything turned out as she had planned. So I went to her blog and there was the next chapter of her life.  I was shocked. Ok, I wasn't shocked.  Her fairy tale crashed.  Its kind of sad really, because part of the reason she had stopped writing stories was the comments she was getting.  Nobody embraced her vision of the future.  They all warned her that she was setting herself up for failure and she hated that. But they were right.
Now the other thing I like is that when you go to someones blog you see the most current.  You see the results of all the previous blogs. So the first one I read was her life of total destruction.  Her fairytale stories had turned into blogs of hate, revenge, sex, drugs, and boys.  She was angry, alienated, vindictive.  Step by step, blog by blog I got to go back and see how her life progressed to the now.  The simple little errors that made life hell as they built up over time.
And that is why I'm here.  I get to see peoples life as it plays out.  I like to see the results and how people got to be who they are.  The very first day I spent on EP back in 2009 was the same.  I remember the profile and the soap opera that her life became.  I was hooked then, and I'm still hooked now.