Burden I have become. | firegod74's Blog
I'll get the bags. You just... you just deal with dad..... A conversation sometimes had when dealing with the elderly. But not in my case. In my case it was the words of a 13 year old, and the subject was me.
For the next two weeks I am an invalid. I cant bend over to put on socks or shoes, I can't lift more than a milk jug. The milk jug is a funny one. It makes me second guess everything around me. It also limits me and makes me work around those limitations.
For instance, the wife knows I like toast in the morning. But by the time I get up she will be gone to work.
"How will you have toast without margarine?" She asks.
The margarine container is a big bulk thing that we are both sure weighs more than a milk jug.
"I'll just scoop it out of the container while its still in the fridge" was my witty reply.
"But you can't bend over that far".... True. No bending or stretching allowed.
At this point I mumble that I'll figure it out. In my head though I'm screaming at her to just put the fucking margarine on a higher shelf of the fucking fridge. But after only 3 days of this I'm already past giving the simple orders that would make my life easier. And I know that I will figure out how to get my margarine, or I'll do without.
And see, the thing that pisses me off is that I think these limitations are bullshit. I mean sure I know I have to be carefull. I can't risk ripping out the stitches along my spine, or the very worse, an infection. But I feel that the limitations placed on me are more of r someone totally incapacitated from their injury. I wasn't. I battled through the pain and kept myself in as good a shape as I could. The surgeon called it high pain tolerance, but whatever. The result is that my back is strong and only my leg is weak. To strengthen it I need to move it.
But for now I sit in this house and rot. Probably only getting weaker instead of the opposite. Hell I didn't even get out of bed to pee until noon today. Some recovery this is.
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